The World has Turned and Left Me Here
Mourning. People tend to respect that. Nobody tells a mother "Stop crying, your son's not going to rise from the dead.". They pay their respects to the departed and give solace by being there, silent, sombre, part of the sorrow. Instead of chasing the sadness away, they allocate an amount of time to immerse in it. To Mourn.

Nobody has a problem with that, they think it's good and proper. It's healthy, helps to get over things and lay memories to rest.

Why can't they do it for me when i need it? Small things deserve it. I haven't had a day so filled with anger and despair for half a year. Yesterday hurt so bad in so many ways. Why can't i be given time to mourn? You are so eager to chase the shadows away, why can't you see that the darkness comforts me?

Nighttime was three mad emo hobbits on E.

Went to the NUS law bash last night at Centro360

Of course i had nothing to do with it, but why was i there?? Well you see, this girl, Dian, is Kristal's best friend from secondary school. She and Tara turned up for the Thru The Ears gig at Jams Eightball performed in. Dian is from the NUS law faculty. She got to talking to Tara and asked Tara to model at the bash(my gf so pretty!!!).

Went down with Sue-ann and Krissy, after Kristal got her tongue pierced. The tongue piercing thing is another adventure in itself.

Turns out the bash was quite boring, 80% of attendance were guys, of which 90% looked like prepubescent appearence unconscious socially inept boys. ugh. I only found out later much of the attendance weren't actual nus students, lotsa kids waiting for 'A' level results. Girls were hot, but after awhile i noticed the same clubbers i see at zouk/elsewhere: there was charmaine wee and her gang and many others.

Tara was beautiful during the fashion show. Her make-up reminded me of a geisha without the red cheeks. She was a sheet of white with pheonix tailed eye-liner and deepred lipstick. She has cheekbones girls would die for. They had this whole kenzo hairdo that's very jap too... She hated it but really it looked good, only the clothes were a little wierd. She had nice socks though, all holy and cut into what looked like webbing around her feet.

A time of Reunion
I met Singwei tonight at Borders Orange Julius. Gosh i hadn't seen him in 5-6years! it was great catching up with him. He's in Nee Soon Camp as a combat specialist instructor now.. Sargeant! He still resembles himself, yet different as time marks itself on all people.

Gosh. Samuel, Singwei and I were like Best of friends, i can't beleive i lost contact with him for so long! I'm happy to have seen him. We exchanged numbers and promised to go out together with Samuel sometime, maybe to Elephant Pub or something. It's been long, and you've been missed Singwei.


Kentie asked me a wierd question today: "hey sid, is Kristal and Nelson together???" Haha!!!!!! She said someone told her they were seen out together alone. I called Kristal to tease her about it. I don't think she like nelson, but for nelson liking her back, i'm not so sure.... hahahah!!!!

Turns out my dad isn't getting forced to retire, but forced into working a ten day month for half his original pay, and freed from his company into becoming a freelance consultant. It's not that bad, but it still sucks. I'm thankful he didn't lose his job though.

AAAAAAARRRRGGGHH!!!!!!!!!!

The Warcraft3 Azote Vil's Tower Defence Map version1.1 is DAMN HAARD!!!!!!! I KEEP DYING AT LVL 98!!!!! One MOre LevEl to CoMpLetE!!!! AAAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!

Your buildings are under attack, you moron...

bee-bee-ba-bee-bu!

CHeeeeeecken-mcnugget!

Once again, SMOKY MIND THOUGHTS THEORY!

You see, our thoughts and feeling are but smoke, drifting and shapeless. When put to words spoken and written, they get solidified, strengthened. Immortalizing bad things are what i try to avoid. I'm not zany and happy as my blog entries (not ALL the time). But the bad things get forgotten easier.

I did realize while talking to mavis another day that writing bad thoughts down does help. How it works is that when it is written, they may be solidified, but at the same time they get distanced and seperated from your mind on the paper. That makes it easier to detach, forgive, and forget the bad event. It was quite a revelation.

It's kind of contradicting my previous theory, but i feel both are right. It's like i can't insist on anything to be definite, but it nice to have more perspectives and be able to change as you need it.


where do you put henna? hand ah!

Hello. Jimmy's Gourmet Assmeats! Sqoosh Sqoosh!

Kristal showed me "The Adventures of College Lesbian Girls!". Kentie Showed me "Granta", a new writing magazine. I showed others the "Gon" manga comic. It's show and tell!~

Finally approved: My FYP topic. Channel idents i'll be doing. yaYY! Mum and Dad came back from China. No more laundry, cooking, plant watering and floor mopping! uh... i'll still help, but n o more of it full time!~ yaYY!

BlahBlahBlah... ehmmm... dunno lah. Just write som,ething to stay alive... ah ah a hah ah stayin' alive, stayin' alive....

NEW YEAR"S RESOLUTIONS: 720x576 pixels

Lost track of the days... New Years day Nelson brought his two army friends to our supposed 'band outing', one of which has no respect for other people's opinions, what poor upbringing. I think his name is Kai-Tak.

More eventful was the night before, 3rd Jan, Phoebe's drunken birthday bash (she was doing most of the bashing, then again, she's always been the bashful type). Veron made the sidewalk into barf-land, while Phoebe slurred and spit and laid challenge to jellies on their wobbliness. It was a spectacle we ought to have brought a dv cam down to film. I don't get why nowadays ppl our age seem to need to pub/club and get drunk on their birthdays.

Night Walk - Belle and Sebastion